mengah

erm...is it me...or semua pregnant lady yg dah sarat2 jadi macam ni...

mama SOB ( shortness of breath) samapi rasa nak pitam ( gelap mata) dan nak jatuh...

jadi tadi..

masa lepas mandikan the kids.....mama need to ask abg haris utk kencing...btw dia baru bersunat..jadinya....mama memang tak cukup tido dan banyak extra work...cuci luka..comfort dia...layan dia...jadinya...this 1 week...rasa dah max tenaga guna...and yg paling tak best..abg ke kl lagi hujung minggu ni...

berbalik pada keadaan mama tadi...

possible cause yg mama terpikir...

1. anaemia...dah berbulan2 x check darah...

2. cardiac output x cukup sebab low bp sebab recurrent episode SVT...erm...last attack october...and small attact..countless!...

3. telalu letih sebab workload naik since abg haris berkhatan....

tapi...memang tercungap2 tadi....sambil berckp tu...dah mula rasa gelap2...memang tak best lah rasanya...Ya Allah..kalau pitam tadi...memang haris lah kena ambil peranan...call abah dan put the other siblings to comfort...

tua sgt kot mengandung ni...tua utk mama...badan tak kuat mana ni...bukan tak cukup mkn or kurang zat...i just think that my body memang x kuat since jantung pun macam2 aktiviti tambahan yg x perlu...

masak belum lagi ni....duduk atas tilam...nak tido..x boleh....mengah...nak masak tak larat berdiri...jari aje yg boleh bergerak ni....i just up an entry.....kenangan pun...bila dah lepas...x igt...

since 2-3 minggu ni....anak2 lunch lambat sgt..kol 3 baru mkn...sebab i need to lay down sooo many times due to tiredness..

makan pun x boleh nak pilih2...i just buy instant things like bread yg boleh bagi mereka kenyang cepat since i can't affort to make cekodok or fresh food macam selalu...

aisyah skin punya eczema pun naik balik...kesian dia tergaru2...tak sabar nak bersalin...mak dan abg ada full time di rumah urus mkn minum the kids properly...

the only thing that i can think of now adalah..BTL...im too weak for another one...im just too week...

Allah..please  make it easy on me....i really need Your help....Allah....